What Suffering Does
A tyranny of Silence

Reminds me of a time when I was sitting in the library and I got really sad all of a sudden. I took a glance at my surroundings. Everyone hunched over their papers and books. Screened walls barricading the spaces between people. Fingers kept busy with the plastic keyboard. So intent on what they are doing. So much immersed in what they are learning in their classes (or who knows, maybe everyone I saw was on facebook. people get pretty intense about facebook). All of a sudden I wondered, “what are they studying? what are they learning?” If they are investing so much time into it, they must care about what they are learning about at least a little bit right? It is so strange. We get the internship we’ve been fanning over for months and immediately announce it to the entire world on facebook. We get a sucky hall choosing number and mope about it, …on facebook. It doesn’t get much deeper than that. The creative processes and passions rolling in our brain don’t get channeled anywhere except onto an inanimate piece of white paper. For a college where we are so physically close to each other, we keep the pieces of our lives in compartmentalized boxes. It allows us to censor and edit ourselves to others. We only see sides of each other. We don’t see the full spectrum of flaws and bubbling, raw, thoughts and emotions. We become afraid to show mistakes, be mistakes, make mistakes. We don’t allow ourselves to let our boxes intermingle for fear of my oh my, what do we do when parts of our lives are not completely shoved into boxes? I realized I am becoming / became a part of this as well. These days I feel intellectually isolated from my peers. Conversation has boiled down to, “Hello,” “I have so much work,” “I am so stressed out about what to do this summer.” I am sad. I feel lifeless. It’s eating me alive - slowly but surely - whatever this thing is. I find myself falling into this “it,” isolating myself from others, being afraid to break down walls. Pretty powerful and damaging, this “it” is. Maya articulated her thoughts into eloquence I can only dream to achieve. She hit this “it” pretty hard on the head: ‘it’ is silence. 




Demo of Beat It composed using only Michael Jackson’s voice

As Jackson couldn’t fluently play any instruments, he would sing and beatbox out how he wanted his songs to sound by himself on tape, layering the vocals, harmonies and rhythm before having instrumentalists come in to complete the songs.

One of his engineers Robmix on how Jackson worked: “One morning MJ came in with a new song he had written overnight. We called in a guitar player, and Michael sang every note of every chord to him. “here’s the first chord first note, second note, third note. Here’s the second chord first note, second note, third note”, etc., etc. We then witnessed him giving the most heartfelt and profound vocal performance, live in the control room through an SM57. He would sing us an entire string arrangement, every part. Steve Porcaro once told me he witnessed MJ doing that with the string section in the room. Had it all in his head, harmony and everything. Not just little eight bar loop ideas. he would actually sing the entire arrangement into a micro-cassette recorder complete with stops and fills.”

Reasons why I laugh when people say he wasn’t a real musician.

Radiohead’s drummer just retweeted a link to you:

Congrats, babe. I feel famous by proxy now.


(Source: harrattanparhar)


Artist’s Palettes and Paint Boxes Continued…

Following on from my previous post. Here are some more artist’s palettes and paint boxes.

1. Turner (source)

2. Cezanne (source)

3. Vertes (source)

4. Chagall (source)

5. Balthus (source)

6. Anon. 19th Century French (same style as Gaugin’s) (source)

7. Anon. 19th-20th Century Dutch. (source)

8. Anon. 19th Century (source)

9. Roberts (source)

10. MacDonald (source)

Examination and analysis of  securely provenance primary source material such as artist’s palettes and paint boxes, allows for a wider understanding of the artists materials and techniques, and can be used to assist in provenance studies. As connoisseurship is only part of the art authentication pathway.  

"Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart."

-Fyodor Dostoyevsky (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

"The most I can muster right now is to just be thankful."

reblogging this ‘cause this is stealing my heart big time <3
An Open Letter to Vita Nova

Growing pains. 

"Imagine what the world would be like if we measure each other, not by how much we accomplish and own, but by how well we love others."

-[summer project ‘13]